What do I really want?

I have said this before but what's the big deal of getting married. As my wedding day approaches and the stress builds I wonder what is the big fuss over.

The date is set venue booked and the second round of save the dates have been ordered. I am honestly have second thoughts of this whole marriage thing. I am not sure if I want the same things as my future husband. We have went to premarital counseling but yet I am still unsettled.

The thoughts are running through my mind a mile a minute....Do I love someone else?  I guess this blog will be my release for the next couple months since I am sure he doesn't read this.

xoxox A very confussed Baby Mama

Runway Bride

Hello blog.. I missed you  but I need you know and need to get some things out.

So I am less than a year away to walking down the aisle and I am TERRIFIED! I thought men were the ones that are scared. Each day approaches and I am like is this the right thing for me. I am a very independent soul and feel like I might loose apart of myself. Every little girl dreams of that day they will walk down the aisle but not myself. I have never dreamed of the house, child, and husband. My ideal life goals were own a home, great career with a Range Rover in my garage.

I am questioning everything in my life now. Is this the right thing? Do I see myself with this man for the rest of my life? Do we want the same things?more children? etc. Sometimes I think I might have been a man in another life. I am a workalcholic and want more in my life.I honestly have no complaints right now in my life great man, great daughter, and a home. What more could someone ask for? Right?


Hmmm thinking and wondering is marriage for everyone? We'll blog I shall return sooner than later.


XOXOX
Baby Mama

The Coutdown Begins

So I am officially planning for my dream wedding. I feel the Bridezilla coming out already. I have done a little planing already but know it the real deal making deposits structuring the whole event. I thought my groom would just pay for it and show up but I don't think it is going to be that easy. I want what I want and I can admit I am a control freak when it comes to planning events. Although I have two event planners for my special day.

My journey is just beginning and I now I  will be happy with the end. I will be posting regularly I promise!

So the battle of the sexes Saturday Stresses begins.
What will the colors be? hmm let's see......I want my theme to be a Hollywood premier with a red carpet entrance. The colors Black, purple and red. I am working to convince the groom( I know right). What happen to just choosing the food? I know it's his wedding too but I want what I want. i am a little BRAT!. I gave him food and cake and music so that's a compromise.Right?

Working Mama

I am starting to feel the pressure of my upcoming wedding. Haven't quite figured out exactly what I want. My one wish would be to get my favorite Event Planner David Tutera! I love all his work but can't afford it by any means (girl can dream can't she).

I am feeling the pressure of my job and have decided to that life is way more important than a job. I haven't got far with the Happiness Project Book but my inspiration board is working. I am thankful I received a raise at my job, I am thankful for those cool purple sneakers I really wanted and I am thankful for my vacation to Mexico coming soon. I am thankful for my little blog hobby. I also want to say thank you to my readers!

Baby Mama Love

Haven't had much time for my blog but I realized this is a stress relief for myself. I have my glass of wine and ready for some blog love. On a side note my Baby Daddy is  really annoying me today. I think I diagnosed what my problem is wedding presure or PMS!

So here's my question to my fellow real women out there... Why do you think women hate on each other so much?  We'll here's my answer ladies I think that women only hate on each other because they have what you want or what you want to achieve. In high school I often found myself not liked by many. I still wonder why they didn't like me. Oh yea I remember why they didn't like me I was the cheerleader that dated the star player, homecoming queen, vice-president, yearbook staff.....yea I know if i wasn't me I hate me too. No let's be real I was ambitious what I wanted I went after.

My response was hey don't hate me cause your not me! If you want something go after it, nobody  is stopping you. If you see a lady with fly pair of shoes, purse or her hair is looking fly tell her! I don't hate! Do you and I am going to do me. You don't have to like me or what I do, but respect me!

Life to Short to be Miserable

Dear Baby Mama's,

I hope someone is reading that could use the advice or knows somebody who can. So here's today's  baby mama dish.

 So here's  the situation,  this baby mama makes the money in the house bringing home close to 100K a year. Her baby daddy doesn't have a job nor does he help cook, clean, or watch the kids.He cheats on her , he verbally abuses her, and spends money on silly things like  rims. In some circumstances I think it's alright for a man to stay home if he is helping out with the household duties but in the situation this is a OH NO girlfriend. If I was you I would run far away from this man! I understand you have a child with this man but you can do better. If you are planning on marrying this man just remember he can get alimony from you and you might be paying for this dumb mistake for a long time. Get grip girlfriend!!!!

 Please ladies love yourself first beforea man!

Can't Teach a Old Dog New Tricks

Everyone has a choice in life it is your own fault you’re in the situation your in. If your man leaves you for another women every time he is doing good then he is a no good brother and you don’t need him anyway. Please lead with your brain and not your heart in this situation.Do not let him come home when he get's out of jail or his other baby mama has kicked him out. Be strong and let the dog go!

I have seen to many women let stray dogs in there house because they have nowhere else to go. Tell them to find a shelter! I have seen many mature women 50+ letting this fly.Seeing this as a young adult, has only made me stronger and I know what I will and will not put up with. Like the old saying goes, “A man will only do to you what you let him”!

Stay Strong Ladies and I know it hurts but there is bigger and better out there.