What do I really want?

I have said this before but what's the big deal of getting married. As my wedding day approaches and the stress builds I wonder what is the big fuss over.

The date is set venue booked and the second round of save the dates have been ordered. I am honestly have second thoughts of this whole marriage thing. I am not sure if I want the same things as my future husband. We have went to premarital counseling but yet I am still unsettled.

The thoughts are running through my mind a mile a minute....Do I love someone else?  I guess this blog will be my release for the next couple months since I am sure he doesn't read this.

xoxox A very confussed Baby Mama